victimstatus (victimstatus) wrote,

 It's been a while.

It's taken 3 periods to truly believe I'm not pregnant. 

I went to have STI testing done. Like pregnancy it was a very low risk, but I couldn't relax until I was absolutely sure. The tests all came back clear.

I still have fear, but less than at first. I still have nightmares. Three and a half months now since he raped me. I guess it's not that long in the big scheme of things.

Maybe I'll get there. 
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