It's taken 3 periods to truly believe I'm not pregnant.
I went to have STI testing done. Like pregnancy it was a very low risk, but I couldn't relax until I was absolutely sure. The tests all came back clear.
I still have fear, but less than at first. I still have nightmares. Three and a half months now since he raped me. I guess it's not that long in the big scheme of things.
Maybe I'll get there.