victimstatus (victimstatus) wrote,

Trigger warning.

 My stupid vulva has torn again. No stimulation at all, it just tore. 

It's so hard to NOT think about being raped when, 10 months on, the body part he ripped open has still not fixed itself. 

I need to go back to the doctor but I can't bear the thought of anyone touching me, these days. No more of that fucking around I did a few months ago. I haven't even been able to go to the doctor about a cough because she'd need to touch me to listen to my chest. 

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